A Glimpse into the Afterlife

The author's brother, Billy,  as he was in life.
The author’s brother, Billy, as he was in life.

“The first thing that happens is bliss, at least it was like that in my case.”

I grabbed a pen and began writing my brother’s words as he spoke. Nothing would have been odd about this had he been sitting next to me or on the phone. But he was dead. He died three weeks earlier after being hit by a car. I’d been a mess ever since, so depressed over Billy’s death I could barely lift my head from the pillow. But on this day, I was awakened at dawn by his unmistakable voice calling my name.

“Annie, Annie it’s me. It’s Billy. Get up and get the red notebook.”

The red notebook he told me to get had been a birthday gift from him the year before. I remember it seemed strange, his giving me a blank book with an inscription that read: “Dear Annie, Everyone needs a book dedicated to them. Read between the lines.”

As cryptic as it was, I don’t think either of us could have imagined what it would be used for. But that red notebook became our book, mine and Billy’s, a record of my encounters with my dead brother as he spoke to me about his journey through the afterlife.

Feeling a Divine presence
When I first heard Billy’s voice, I wasn’t sure if I was having some sort of strange grief-induced reaction to make me feel better about his departure from Earth. But as my brother went on speaking, for the first time since his death I felt happy.

I knew Billy was okay as he assured me, “There’s nothing hard or cruel for me anymore. I’m drifting weightlessly through these gorgeous stars and moons and galaxies twinkling all around me. The whole atmosphere is filled with a soothing hum, like hundreds of thousands of voices are singing to me, but they’re so far away I can just barely hear them. And although I can’t exactly say anyone was here to greet me, I feel a Divine presence, a kind, loving, beneficent presence, twinkling all around me.”

When Billy was alive, he was far from perfect. My bad-boy brother did a lot of things that many people would consider big mistakes. Although the end of his life was filled with darkness as he battled his addictions and lost the war, my brother was healed by the light as soon as he left his body.

According to Billy:

  • What lies beyond this world is a realm of absolute love that reaches far outside the limits of human understanding.
  • Some believe there’s Judgment Day after you die, but Billy says the opposite. There’s No-Judgment Day.
  • As you experience the unconditional love of the Divine Presence, you begin to feel that way towards yourself, unconditional.

So whatever our struggles, whatever our truth, whatever darkness we may encounter, Billy wants us to know this: “The shadow is illusory and temporary. Bliss, ultimately bliss and light, are the truer and stronger reality.”

People often ask if hearing Billy’s voice from the afterlife is frightening. Not at all. As he speaks, the bliss of his world flows into mine and I feel almost euphoric. According to Billy, this is just the smallest taste of what awaits each of us when we pass into the next dimension.

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Annie Kagan
Annie Kagan is a singer/songwriter who had a chiropractic practice in Manhattan for many years. Kagan gave up her medical practice, returned to songwriting and began collaborating with award-winning producer Brian Keane. While writing her first novel, her brother Billy died unexpectedly and began speaking to her from the afterlife. Annie now shares Billy's wisdom, humor and detailed description of the bliss and wonder to come in the next life in her debut book, The Afterlife of Billy Fingers: How My Bad-Boy Brother Proved To Me There's Life After Death.


  1. Come on, REALLY? Why just her Brother?
    I was SO Close to my NAN & PA……Nothing from them & they said they would if there really was something “after”.

  2. I am looking forward to reading this book as I truly believe that there is much more than our life on earth.

  3. The book was really interesting however there are some conflicts with what “others” who have channeled say. For instance, towards the end of the book, Billy tells Annie he has just about forgot all his earthly ties and memories. Personally for me, I hope that’s not the way it is. I’ve read many times over that we DO NOT forget those whom we love on this earth and eventually will be joined with them. Many legitimate mediums say the same. I’ve had my own experience with my grandmother who crossed over in 1978. In 2010, she sent a message to me through a medium, an answer to the exact question I had ask in my prayers/thoughts to her the night before. This medium didn’t know me from a hole in the wall and asked for no money to pass this message to me. She is a certified and well-known medicum. Anyway, besides this, the book is uplifting.

  4. Let me tell you some thing, I have talked to my son after his death, he said he was happier then he had ever been and he has seen Jesus which he said he does not look like any pictures here. I had such a had time with his death and kept a note book on my survivial that a put it in a book called Rainbows from Heaven and if you don’t believe in after life you need to read it.

  5. Thank you for sharing this, Annie. In response to Nicola’s comment, after researching 500 NDEs, I don’t believe he will ever lose his love for Annie or his ability to be present if and when she needs him. I think his focus is changing toward his duties in heaven, and away from his life on earth. I believe that love is eternal and as some NDErs say, is the only thing you take with you when you leave earth. My book, Revelations of Profound Love: New Insights into the Power of Love from Near-Death Experiences, reports many accounts of love surviving death and of love being more powerful than we ever imagined. Visit http://www.revelationsofprofoundlove.com to learn more about it and about eternal love.

  6. I found the book to be a really good read, but…….I was really bothered by the fact that Billy is always alone. He is always blissful, but alone. That bothered me greatly. The same part mentioned by nicola also upsetting. the part where he is going into the big void also upsetting. I realize he was pulled back from that, but still upsetting. I have a feeling maybe I missed something. I think maybe this was Billy’s experience because it was his last incarnation. He did talk about different levels of “heaven”. Maybe it did say in there that it was different for everybody and I overlooked it. Honestly, I was left very bothered by the book. Please let me know if I totally missed something in this book.

  7. If you read “Journey of Souls” by Dr. Michael Newton, you will read about actual case histories of people who have been spiritually regressed into the afterlife. You don’t see Jesus, what you do see are your soul family, spirit guides and the like. Some souls are very young souls who have not incarnated much and there are advanced souls. Dr. Newton does not practice anymore as he teaches and certifies other therapists to do this specific regression which is totally different than past life regressions. Also, on Dr. Newton’s website, there is a link to finding a therapist and if you put in your zip code, you can find someone in your area that does it.

  8. Sandy – I don’t think you missed anything. I forgot the part about the big void but yes, that bothered me too and it doesn’t fit with lots of other ADCs. Anthony Borgia – Life in the World Unseen, Craig Hogan – Your Eternal Self, Victor Zammit and countless others who have YEARS of research in this field do not say this. In fact, these researches have said just the opposite. Maybe the messages were misunderstood my Annie. Why would he be alone? Why would he “forget” his earthly ties? What Ann Frances Ellis, PhD stated in her post above would make more sense however, this wasn’t what was said in the book.

  9. Patriot Lady – There are many wonderful books about life between lives, including that of Dr. Michael Newton. However, I must say that I met Jesus when Dr. Newton regressed me. I met other souls as well, plus I received a wonderful “hug” from one of my guides who had great wisdom. Thanks for mentioning Dr. Newton’s wonderful work.


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